Actually, not that much of a mess — I’ve been finishing Lincoln Lawyer Season 2 and falling for Mickey
But right now, I’m losing my motivation to help people.
It always turns out to have some transactional motive.
I keep thinking:
“If I don’t get any benefit in return, why should I go the extra mile?”
or
“The reward doesn’t excite me enough.”
Instead of making my life easier, it’s turning into a nightmare —
because it just makes me procrastinate, waiting for the “right time” (which never really exists),
and in the end, I do things without any passion 🙁